The worst part

The worst part about not having a voice was the silence where there was once a beatific sense of melody every day.

Not singing made him frustrated, and angry, and faithless.

Looking back on it, the situation was more a trial from whatever higher power there is... we think.

It was out of this frustration that he began to doubt his current view of religion, and ponder the exploration of his 'sinful' feelings towards guys, people of the same sex, whatever you want to call it.

His mother was a devout and strict Catholic, and would never have abided that. He had never kissed anyone, female or male before. Bringing home a girlfriend he could possibly be sexually active was very taboo, and the thought of bringing home a man was just unimaginable.

...Almost unmentionable would be her wrath if he did so... that which he coveted the most... the strong, sinfully sour and sweet companionship of a man.

And it was... her wrath was abominable. But that is for later.